holla atcha blog

Ok, so I fell off again and it's been forever since I've written anything on here. I did so well March - July, but after all the Lolla hoopla I really never got back into it. Granted I was really busy in August and September due to moving and job switching, but after that I don't have much of an excuse except for being mildly depressed for a while. But anyhoo, it doesn't matter cuz here I am! Back in action, watch out!!

So for those of you that can't keep up, I work at Azia now. I half love half hate it. My depression before was somewhat due to thinking I needed a 'real' job, but I don't think that's the case anymore. Now my goal is just to create something in my down time so I am doing something productive and that I like to do rather than just... I don't know partying all the time or something, ha. There's nothing wrong with being a server. It's a lifestyle I enjoy, so all you 9-5ers can suck it. Me likey. Well, I'd likey more if Azia wasn't so hellish sometimes, but sometimes it's really fun too, so whatev. I still job hunt every day, but I don't know how I actually feel about making the big switch to a day job. Generally speaking tho, I feel like I'm in a lot better place than I was in in my more melancholy blogs as of late.

Regarding other aspects of my life, I still have a terrible knack of meeting boys either with girlfriends or ones that are just getting out of really long term relationships and so they are thus in no position to be hanging out with me, because I just can't deal with that emotional bs. Well, I mean it's not bs, I understand where they are coming from, but I'm not one for hanging out and then having to wait while you cry after we kiss, because you aren't ready yet :P Haha. And anyway, I have about 10 crushes at any given time, so I guess it doesn't really matter.

Regarding friends, there are some friends I haven't seen for a while that I need to make a point of reconnecting with. There are new friends from work that are very fun, in fact I have poker night with work friends tonight. Wish me luck!! Other friends I know are depressed and I finally said something today, but I'm not sure if it went over very well. They said they would be fine, but I don't know. I mean, I know they will be, but I think it's about time they snapped out of it even if it's little baby steps to not sitting around and moping all the time.

I am craving bennihana and really need to get there for lunch sometime soon when it's cheap. Mmmm, shrimp sauce...

I was thinking about canceling my gym membership since I haven't been there in months, but now I realized I'm getting fat and with the holiday season coming, I think I need to meet with a personal trainer so they can make a workout plan for me that's efficient instead of me just blundering around doing 30 minutes of cardio and some random weights. Also, my insurance will kick back in if I go a lot and it will be cheaper. And there is a tanning booth. Woot!

My kittens are still adorable as ever, but Yumi is stinky today and I really want to give her a bath, but I just don't think I have the energy for it. I need to convince someone to help me. Any takers??

And I guess that's it for now. Peace & love y'all.

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