dream a little dream of me

Lately I have been having so many dreams. Really vivid, I think they're actually happening dreams. But then I'll wake up and I'll only remember them for the fleeting few moments of time between sleep and wakefulness, then they'll be gone. Only the feelings I had while dreaming linger. So for the past week I've woken up feeling extremely happy, satisfied, in love, but then sometimes extremely sad, depressed, and insufficient. It's awesome when I am dreaming a happy dream, but not so great when I wake up sad. Sometimes it's hard to shake the feeling off. Anyway, 2008 is winding down. Sister Robyn gets home on the 22nd, super excited! Glad I will get to finish off the year with her :) That's all for now. <3

happy holidays from me & the girls

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i hate comcast

Omg. My cable and internet are messed up. Again. For those of you that are not aware, I have had a series of technical problems ever since returning from Colorado. First my internet was out plus my battery had basically blown up or something. Then my hard drive basically crashed. Got that fixed, but then had to reload all of my stuff on which took forever since I had to find where all my old discs went, etc. My internet had been spotty since then and it is now apparently not working again. So stay tuned for actual updates, but it's hard when your computer & internet aren't working :P

holla atcha blog

Ok, so I fell off again and it's been forever since I've written anything on here. I did so well March - July, but after all the Lolla hoopla I really never got back into it. Granted I was really busy in August and September due to moving and job switching, but after that I don't have much of an excuse except for being mildly depressed for a while. But anyhoo, it doesn't matter cuz here I am! Back in action, watch out!!

So for those of you that can't keep up, I work at Azia now. I half love half hate it. My depression before was somewhat due to thinking I needed a 'real' job, but I don't think that's the case anymore. Now my goal is just to create something in my down time so I am doing something productive and that I like to do rather than just... I don't know partying all the time or something, ha. There's nothing wrong with being a server. It's a lifestyle I enjoy, so all you 9-5ers can suck it. Me likey. Well, I'd likey more if Azia wasn't so hellish sometimes, but sometimes it's really fun too, so whatev. I still job hunt every day, but I don't know how I actually feel about making the big switch to a day job. Generally speaking tho, I feel like I'm in a lot better place than I was in in my more melancholy blogs as of late.

Regarding other aspects of my life, I still have a terrible knack of meeting boys either with girlfriends or ones that are just getting out of really long term relationships and so they are thus in no position to be hanging out with me, because I just can't deal with that emotional bs. Well, I mean it's not bs, I understand where they are coming from, but I'm not one for hanging out and then having to wait while you cry after we kiss, because you aren't ready yet :P Haha. And anyway, I have about 10 crushes at any given time, so I guess it doesn't really matter.

Regarding friends, there are some friends I haven't seen for a while that I need to make a point of reconnecting with. There are new friends from work that are very fun, in fact I have poker night with work friends tonight. Wish me luck!! Other friends I know are depressed and I finally said something today, but I'm not sure if it went over very well. They said they would be fine, but I don't know. I mean, I know they will be, but I think it's about time they snapped out of it even if it's little baby steps to not sitting around and moping all the time.

I am craving bennihana and really need to get there for lunch sometime soon when it's cheap. Mmmm, shrimp sauce...

I was thinking about canceling my gym membership since I haven't been there in months, but now I realized I'm getting fat and with the holiday season coming, I think I need to meet with a personal trainer so they can make a workout plan for me that's efficient instead of me just blundering around doing 30 minutes of cardio and some random weights. Also, my insurance will kick back in if I go a lot and it will be cheaper. And there is a tanning booth. Woot!

My kittens are still adorable as ever, but Yumi is stinky today and I really want to give her a bath, but I just don't think I have the energy for it. I need to convince someone to help me. Any takers??

And I guess that's it for now. Peace & love y'all.

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muh

Lately every time I get into my car to go wherever, I feel compelled to just pass my destination and keep driving. To where? I'm not sure. I just get this sense of melancholy and don't want to stop. Lately I just feel a sense of incompleteness or like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop though I don't know what will happen when it does. I'm bored. I suppose now would be a good time to set up a screen printing area in my apartment and get a dba set up etc. but I am somehow immobilized as well. Frozen in the boredom that is my life. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, I love my friends, I have a good time when I go out with them and all, but it just isn't enough lately. I need more.

time

I feel like I need more time. An extra 4 hours in every day. I don't have enough of it to get everything done. Some of the things I need to do have other people depending on me for it, some stuff is just me, some for work... all of it doesn't fit into my day. I often underestimate the amount of time menial things things take, like going to buy more garbage bags, or changing the kitty litter, doing laundry. All of a sudden there is no time for anything else until I have to go to work. And then I get home from work hoping to finish up other work, but I find that I'm exhausted and can barely keep my eyes open and it's only midnight. Eating also takes up a lot of time. But it's necessary. Setbacks like being unable to find work clothes took up 2 entire days of my free time. 3 if you count that I had to go to my parents to pick them up, because they needed to be hemmed. I need a day off.

Also, it's second chance summer! This whole week will be nice so everyone wear shorts and sandals, because this is probably your last chance! I personally, am stoked. That is if I ever get to leave my apartment besides going to work.

end of an era

Wow. In case you haven't noticed, summer is over. Really over. Here are the top 10 exciting things about the end of summer according to me (I'm trying to be optimistic here, so just go with it):

1. Quit Stella's
2. Got hired at Azia
3. Football season is here! Go Vikes!!
4. The return of plaids and argyle
5. I can wear boots again!
6. Fall coats are super cutey!!
7. Changing color leaves
8. Lower electricity bill (no AC!)
9. Hoodies
10... I can't think of any more actually. [insert your own exciting thing here]

glum

Today I feel lethargic and kind of depressed. I have a feeling it's mostly to do with the weather. Summer is really basically over. This year I feel like once summer is over, so is my life. Not really, but the end of all the fun and games. It doesn't even have to be that way if I could just find a goddamn job. I feel like that would be the end of all my problems (sort of) and rejuvinate me about life. I'm sick of serving. I just applied for another server/bartender job, but I am not excited about it. At all. In fact, I kind of hope I just don't get it. Which is dumb, because if I can't find a day job I'm going to need an additional job besides Stella's. Aaagghhh. BOO URNS.

In not so pessimistic news, New Kids on the Block released their CD which made me happy <3 <3 <3 :). Ha. One good thing about summer being over means everyone is releasing their fall lines which means the return of plaids and I love plaids. Not that I have money to buy any of it, but it's nice to have it around again. That's all for now. Ciao ciao.

in a nutshell, lolla day 2 & 3

Ok, I've just realized that I haven't been blogging, because for whatever reason I feel like I can't resume normal blogging habits until I finish the damn Lolla recap. Which I probably never will in detail, so I am going to talk strictly about the music in a nutshell.

Day 2 (Saturday)
Margot & the Nuclear So & So's: Got there just in time to hear my fave song Skeleton Key and maybe 3 more. They were good :)

The Ting Tings: Effing RULED!! <3 <3 <3

MGMT: Not as absolutely awesome as I thought they would be, but I was also pretty far back and still reeling about how super wonderful the Ting Tings were.

Spank Rock: They killed it. I hadn't heard them before, but I loved them. Their album isn't nearly as good as they were live.

Jamie Lidell: I'm not a super fan of him, but he ruled live! Also way better than his albums.

Lupe Fiasco: I skipped Broken Social Scene for him and wished I hadn't. The sound was horrible and he was just ok. Although he had on an awesome suit with awesome shoes.

Rage Against the Machine: Words cannot express. They are super powerful live if you can get beyond the crazy moshing fratties. They had to stop the show a bunch of times because people were getting smashed and trampled. But they killed it!! See my myspace/facebook for vids.

Day 2 was perfect weatherwise, and after seeing RATM, we were all riled up and ready to party so we headed to Smart Bar for some dancing. We originally going to go there to see both Kaskade and Jevne, but Kaskade canceled, but we still got to see Jev which was awesome! Out all night, dance dance dance.

Day 3 (Sunday)

Brazilian Girls: Super fun, super cute, loved it.

Chromeo: RULED. Need I say more?

Black Kids: Thoroughly enjoyed it.

Iron & Wine: Wish I could see him in a smaller ven, cuz I heart.

Gnarls Barkley: I listened/watched the jumbotron while laying in the grass under a tree waiting for Becky to pee. It was not as awesome as one would have expected. I will stick to the album.

Girl Talk: All of a sudden everyone's a fan and I could neither see nor move. He apparently did all of his usual antics, but I could only hear. Sounded good, wish I could have moved a bit and wish people weren't just standing stoicly all around me.

Nine Inch Nails: Ok, so I had to decide between NIN and Kanye. I started at NIN, listened to one song, and then was keenly yearning for my boy Kanye and had to hightail it across the park. I hear NIN was awesome tho.

Kanye West: I love him. And I loved Lolla.

Well that was fun reminiscing, but I'm glad I can get back to posting my little tidbits that I usually do. I'm sure you're glad too as you've obviously been missing me. ;)

the highly anticipated lollapalooza recap

It has been so many days since my last post, which really didn't say anything except that the lolla recap was coming. And hey guess what! It is finally here!! I also have a bunch of other news and tidbits, but I will start with lolla, as promised.

The Lollapalooza adventure was a thrown together schlapdash last minute kind of deal. At first I was unsure whether it was even plausible, but I'm not even going to get into all of that except to say that we were running around covering shifts at the last minute and thought that it was possible we may have to go without food if all else fails. But my friend Deb and I made the journey and stayed with my friend Becky. There was only one terrible mishap that I'm not going to talk about, and those of you who know of it should remain mum. We get in Thursday night and are desperately craving beer. We go out with Becky to meet up with her boy and have just a dandy time after we leave the uber packed frat boy bar and head to the irish pub... or whatever it was. All I know is it was much better than being squashed against the wall after a six hour drive.

Anyway, Lollapalooza Day 1 begins with building anticipation AND anxiety. Why, you ask? Because we didn't pre-buy our tickets in the hopes of getting a ticket hookup (which ended up falling through) and so we needed to find 2 3-day passes!! Without going into the details we managed to get them, and at face value which, in my opinion, was a feat. The day is unbearably hot. So hot that you don't have to move and the sweat falls off you in sheets. So hot that it is almost not possible to enjoy the music (almost). But we go inside, get some water, and hit up...

Duffy: Duffy turns out to be very very boring. She was not made for big outdoor festivals. She might be sweet in a more intimate venue and her voice sounded good, but here she sucked it big time. I didn't even like her that much to begin with, but thought she might be cool live. Apparently not. And we were hot...

We beelined it to Perry's where all the djs play and basked in the glorious shaded glen surrounded by the steady beat of the dj's bass. Here we hook up with Deb's friend Nate who was gyrating to the music despite the heat. What a guy! I insta-hearted him :) We head to Gogol Bordello.

Gogol Bordello: THEY EFFING RULED!! This was some crazy crazy gypsy music that of which I'd never heard the likes of before! They lifted me out of my sweating heated up stupor and made me want to run and around and be all crazy-like! I have since listened to their album, and it does not have quite the same energy of the live show, which I was very disappointed about, but should they ever come around to Minneapolis, I am definitely going!! We left early though, to catch some of the Black Keys.

The Black Keys: They sounded good and I like them, but I don't love them so this was just generally good for me.

I think we got some food now before The Raconteurs and chilled at Perry's for a bit.

The Raconteurs: So awesome! Jack Black is a sexy sexy uber talented man, and I am very glad we saw him

This meant, however that we had to dip across the park to see Bloc Party whom I heart heart heart heart heart!

Bloc Party: Bloc Party ruled! Unfortunately I only got to see three songs :(

We chilled at this stage, because up next would be Radiohead!

Radiohead: Radiohead changed my life. They were so utterly amazing. I had really high expectations for them and they blew them out of the water. I was exhausted and they revived me. See my facebook and myspace for vids from them.

And thus ends day 1 Lollapalooza. We were going to go out, but we were too tired and ended up just going to bed. And now I'm tired, day 2 tomorrow... maybe.

much anticipated lolla recap

is on hold. Because possibly all my pics from Sunday got deleted. :P But stay tuned, because the much anticipated Lolla recap is coming soon to a blog near you... this one.

brown bag it bitches

I opened my fridge today and all of a sudden I was transported back to the days of elementary school. I had left half a sandwich in there and it had permeated the air with the scent of brown bag lunches-- sandwiches with shapes cut out of them that my dad would make me, gushers, and doritos. Those were the days.

the best laid plans

Every minute of my time this week has been scheduled with very little room for error. And then of course I effed up. Mostly what has been the problem is finding time to finish my screen print for my summer class. I have been doing some graphics work, that is time sensitive so that has had to come first, but I've also been working at Stella's a shit ton in order to make money for both double rent next month and Lollapalooza.

So tonight after work I was going to have a late night printing session. All I had to do was prep my screens and start printing. Mistake #1: Somehow when I was rinsing my screen the emulsion started just... melting off or something thus ruining my design. This might have not been the end of the world if I had (Mistake #2) utilized the space on my other screen effectively (I have 2) because that one rinsed off fine. But all I had put on it was one tiny part of my design wasting tons of space and I had already exposed it when I realized that I could have put more than one part on it and just tape off the parts I wasn't using. So I had to clean both screens off and recover them with emulsion which needs 8 hours to dry. Now I need to go in tomorrow and try to completely finish and hope that I don't fuck up because the prints are due Saturday and I have to finish for the print exchange and I don't want to exchange crap. I'm really hoping I can get them finished and finished well before late night though, because I wanted to go to a friend's concert at the dinkytowner and then make a cameo at a different friend's birthday afterward. Oh, and I was going to mix my ink tonight, but they are out of black and that is what I needed most!! So maybe, I couldn't have printed at all unless I wanted to take a chance with the shop black (a hodge podge of people's mixtures of blacks which means it could be super transparent or not, you just don't know exactly what it is). Hopefully they will have replaced it tomorrow.

In other news, I have been going on and on about Lolla at work for weeks now and prepping people's minds to pick up my shifts. Obviously, my managers knew I was trying to go, but I wasn't allowed to take the weekend off because of uptown art fair. Well, I got my schedule tonight and my manager gave me the entire weekend off!! WOOP WOOP WOOP! I LOVE HER!!! She made my disastrous printmaking night a little bit shinier :)

Also, I need to find a day job by the end of the summer, so if anyone knows of any good ones. It either needs to be a) creative or b) have healthcare/dental/401k and be more than $30,000 a year. That's not so tough now is it? If it's one of those lame-o jobs, it's cool because then I can concentrate on Mo & my company. If it's creative then you know... I get to be creative, but I have a feeling that would take away time from Mo & my company.

OMG, this has been one of the most boring blogs I have ever written, but I am now officially exhausted. No energy left for humor or good stories and I have a few, but this post is getting long and I falling asleep. At least I blogged at all right? Oh yeah, and if anyone has walkie talkies I need to borrow them.

revamp!

Oooh, looky looky! I revamped my blog!!

Today is the day of Baby Bash, so soon I will be off to buy baby related para for my precious Jen Bunny!! It will be the best baby shower ever thrown. Y'all are missing out if you're not coming.

Also, my friend Deb made my month last night when she decided to attend Lollapalooza! Game on kids, we'ze be takin' a road trip!

And that's all I have time to write about, more later...

sunshiney day

I love making lists. Here is a list of things I'm stoked about:

1. My bff Graham is in town! So excited to hang with him, in fact I'm going to go do that after I finish this blog.

2. Moving to my new super awesome apartment in August

3. Making a sweet ass print in my screen printing class. I have an idea in my head that I hope is able to come to fruition. Hard to find time to go in though :P

4. Lollapalooza. That is if I can get the time off of work and find the money to go.

5. Seeing Becky. (See above)

6. Jen Bunny's Baby Bash on Sunday!

That's it for now. I love summer. I feel like so many good things happen in the summer. Summer lovin' had me a blast.

work hard play hard

Ooooh wow, have I gotten busy. But I've been both busy and productive. So when I actually get play-time, I apparently play hard. At first I was kind of upset when I would realize certain things after the fact, but now I'm just like whatev. You're only young once and things have a way of working themselves out the way they are supposed to be. I'm so much a believer of balance and how things naturally even themselves out, so I'm going to be unconcerned about my sometimes wild behavior and believe that things will turn out the way they should. And really, if my antics were one of my friends I would just laugh. We've all been there right?

oh, also

I've apparently gone blog crazy and just cannot get enough of it. But that's what happens when I'm doing graphics work and I'm on my computer. But that's not what I was going to say.

Here is what I was going to say:

1. Weirdly, everywhere I go lately, in the bathroom there is milk & honey handsoap.

2. I hate it when people cram their bodies into clothes that are too small. The person might not even be overweight (although more often than not, they are), but they definitely look waaay overweight when they try to cram their ass into a pair of tiny shorts that are 2 sizes too small.

3. Mikey's room is full of other people's art. So if you want to do an art exchange with me, I am totally down. I'll trade some of my prints I've been doing for something of yours.

And that's all for now kidlets! Shorty wanna be a thug... no not really.

seriously?

it's probably too late/early in the day to be this candid, but i'll share with you anyway

So I got into a work zone, but I still didn't finish everything. And I'm still awake. And I'm trying to send some of the files off, but they are apparently massive and won't send so I'm annoyed, but possibly too tired to try again right now.

In other thoughts, I was thinking about how sometimes I just jabber away and I do all this talking, but sometimes end up not saying what I really want to say, or say some convoluted version of what I want to say, or say what I want to say, but then get nervous about the person I'm talking to's reaction and somehow manage to turn everything all around so the person has no idea about what is actually true. This happens a lot when I can't tell what the person I'm with is thinking. And when I've had a little too much to drink. This also occurs with doing as well as saying. Like my gut reaction is to do a certain thing, but I hesitate, because I'm not totally certain of the situation or the person I'm with. Is this a bad thing? I'm not sure, because people say look before you leap, but also carpe diem... I think I'll try to stop hesitating. But sometimes I just freeze up. I don't think anyone can tell though, because I'll seem to be behaving perfectly naturally, but it's automatic and on the inside I'm all shit shit shit just do what you want to do or say what you want to say! But I'm frozen.

bah humbug

Somehow I didn't get started on the stuff I had to do until 10:30pm-ish. I thought I'd be able to go to a movie for my Sunday relaxation fix and then jump right into work, but instead I went to a movie and then took a 3 hour nap. Then I ate food, talked on the phone for a while, and THEN started working. Oy. Now I'm hungry again, but instead of eating or continuing work, apparently I'm blogging. Ok, now I feel guilty, I gotta go.

what i did and what i have to do

Dude. Last night saw the fireworks by the Stone Arch Bridge then went to the 10 Second Film festival where my girlfriend was freaking out about her ex-boyfriend hosting the whole damn thing so we had to leave after 20 of the films (there were 100). We were feeling kinda buzzed then, & headed back to uptown. Discovered my friend was breaking up with her boyfriend that night, which I had been advocating for months btw. So a long night was about to get longer. Went to the Indy, ate ahi tuna and jalapeno cream cheese wontons. Nom nom. Started to get really really tired, but had to wait for the breakup friend. Met some white-hat type boys wearing matching outfits. Ok, they weren't matching exactly, but pretty damn close. Lame-o. Leah started talking to this really really sexy latino looking guy. They took Lindsey Lohan shots (red headed sluts with a "coke" back, ha). I finally got to go home and sleep, then had to wake up for my 9:30am screenprinting class. Fun class, but not so fun waking up.

Now I'm in between the class and having to go close at Stella's tonight, which means I won't get to come back home until a little after 2am. Not that I'm complaining. Ok wait wait, I am complaining, I don't want to close. Tomorrow I have to finish a tri-fold brochure for my bro and the upcoming trade show, plus I have to complete the first drafts of the bathroom ads. I need to harness all of my discipline and ignore my innate desire for hardcore procrastination.

In other news, I found a super awesome apartment on 27th & Hennepin. I can start moving in Aug. 1st, I'm sooo stoked about it! Still gonna try to do the last minute thing to Lollapalooza and Chicago tho, we'll see what the financial and work situation is at the end of the month.

Now, I think I'm gonna take a quick nap before I have to go into work. Sorry if this blog was boring and not funny or interesting, but I'm tired. :P

late night thoughts

Sometimes the itunes section "Just for You" spits out some really good music. And it's just for me.

I have to find a new apartment to move into by Sept. 1st. My apartment got new owners and after my lease is up the price of living here goes up to a ridiculous amount for what I'm getting. They also want me to pay $25 per month per cat. Cha! Yeah right :P I'm hoping to find a 2 bedroom around $700. Even though I'll still be living alone, it'd be nice to have an extra room and the extra space. So help a sista out and find me a new home!! (Between lake street and 25th, no farther east than Emerson, hardwood flooring preferred)

Speaking of kittens, mine in particular, I'm thinking of buying those little glue on nail caps for my little darlings. Well at least for Yumi, as much as I'm pretty unconcerned about the scratches, it's a bit ridiculous to be a walking poster child for cutters around the world :P

Strawberry shakes from McDonald's cannot be beat.

Everybody go buy the book "He and She - A Wedding Story" for anyone you know that's getting married. And then buy all the cute stuff that goes with it. BUY BUY BUY! Spend that rebate check!!

I want you to want me.

worthy or not here i come

Last night I was working in the bar at Stella's. A guy came in and sat down. He wanted to know if we had sparkling water; I checked, we had Saratoga... or maybe it was Pelagrino, idk, but whatev, that's not the point. Keep in mind he asked me about it in a super snotty, highly pretentious manner. After I told him the brand, he asked me to bring one out-- "but don't open it," he said "I need to look at it to see if it's worthy of my consumption." Uuuuh hhuuh... so I got him the bottle of water. He looked at it, set it down, and left me a dollar. A few hours later he came back and ordered a bottle of said sparkling water. It was, apparently, worthy of his consumption. :P

happy birthday rebecca davis

To my heart, wishing you the merriest of days and the most glorious of nights. Also, don't get too drunk tonight, remember you have to babysit tomorrow ;)

zoo-riffic

Hey, I went to the zoo today! And I took pictures!! I know, it's really exciting. Please, enjoy the following...

Yeeahhh, scratch that itch!


Butterfly Garden


What's up with that butterfly's wings?


Aww, cutey big kitties!!


Pretty flowers




My cutey niece & nephew


More nature



Now you too have had the zoo experience today. I hope it was zoo-riffic!

odds & ends from my head

I hate banquets now. I used to like them, but now they can blow me.

I have a love hate relationship with Stella's. She is either so so good to me and I love her and think she can do no wrong, or I want to throttle her and kick her to the curb.

Both my sisters, my niece, and my nephew are in town. Haven't seen them for years! (Literally.)

I'm feeling mildly panicky about my life and what I'm going to do with it.

My apartment is ridiculously clean, so come over and see it while it lasts.

I want more.

fieldy of dreams

Yowza. Last night I got to 1st Ave. around midnight. A friend of a friend was throwing a birthday party in the VIP room. In this time I had a few cocktails, listened to some music, and got friendly with the locals. Ok, maybe not locals, but I met a bunch of interesting people. I met a guy who's son is in print ads at Target and who liked my shoes. I met his baby mama who is an eco-friendly real estate agent. I met my friend Deb's bff who apparently used to date my brother's best friend (DJ Jevne)... small effing world. Later, I got kicked out. I would just like to take this time to point out though, that me getting kicked out was bullshit. And it wasn't so much getting kicked out as not letting me back in. The bouncers (who by the way looked 13 years old) claimed I tripped down the stairs, which I definitely didn't and there were people far far far more intoxicated than I at this party. He said he didn't want me to hurt myself. Uh huh. WHATEV. But I was just like fine I'm not gonna argue, it was bar close anyway. Soon people were pouring out and I met a cute little boy who then got into some weird argument with a friend who was not so much a friend. I met a girl named Lark. And I met Fieldy from Korn! He was all don't lean on the bus it's soo dirty, you'll get all dirty. Yeah our bus is so dirty. And I asked this is your bus?? And he said yeah, I'm the bass player from Korn. And then I said now I feel like an idiot. He laughed and took a picture with me. Then Deb & I caught a cab home. I messed around on my computer where I had a hilarious convo with Mikey (I reread it in the am). This morning I discovered that I lost my id and my credit card. Lucky for me, there is so little room on it, that if some poor bastard tries to use it for any major or not so major purchases, it will probably just get declined. Ha.


Shoutout to my pops! Happy dad's day!!

candid me this

I was thinking about being more candid in my blogs. But then I remembered that my mom reads my blog. And after that I remembered that lot's of people you think don't read your blog actually do, you just don't know it. I also remembered that I don't like people to know everything that I'm thinking about, because while I do a lot of thinking, it's not for everyone's personal knowledge. I don't like being an open book, unless it's because you really understand me. And so I decided I'm not going to just explicitly let everyone know what's up. So I guess if you do want to know what's up you'll have to actually put in more effort than just clicking one of your bookmark links. Oh, don't lie, you know you have this bookmarked ;)

too bad so sad

I just had a little fit where I sobbed for five minutes about my phone. Ok, don't get me wrong, I know it's ridiculous, but I did it anyway. Because really, I really need my phone since I don't have a landline. And today I needed to call an old boss about a letter of rec I need, and my manager at Stella's cuz she misscheduled me and it's for tomorrow. So anyway, my phone broke so I drove to Minnetonka to get a new one. They don't have it, but sent me to Apple Valley to get one. I've lost the majority of my contacts, but got a new phone and have some numbers. Breathe a sigh of relief, I can stop thinking about it. Go home, am getting new ringtones, putting in numbers, etc. (since mine are all gone now :P) Then I try to take a picture of my cat for a screensaver when I discover that both the camera and the camcorder do not work. Like are you fucking kidding me? This is a brand new phone that I drove all over town to get wasting a whole bunch of time that I didn't have to get it. So I freaked out and cried about it. Sooo frustrating. But I'm better now :)

Oh, and my sister is in town for 3 weeks from Korea, so I'm super stoked about it. Also, I got a haircut today. Wordup.

beer + tub = best job ever

Last night I sold beer out of a tub on the patio of Stella's. It is probably the best job ever. Seriously. Sitting outside in the warm night air, shooting the shit with drunk people who give you a dollar for opening a bottle of beer for them. You don't have to try to navigate through the throng of people with a tray full of cocktails, people come to you! Best. Job. Ever

pimps don't commit suicide / teen horniness is not a crime

Woah. Wednesday night I watched or rather attempted to watch the movie Southland Tales. This is by director Richard Kelly who did the movie Donnie Darko. All I can say is WTF. And "teen horniness is not a crime." If you want to be completely flabbergasted by the insane WTF-ness of a movie, watch Southland Tales.

Also, I think I caught and fought off a 24 hour virus in the time between Wednesday and Thursday. I thought it was the movie giving me a headache, then I thought I got the headache because I had hit myself in the head with a door on Tuesday, but then when I still wasn't feeling well Thursday I figured it maybe was a little bug. But it seems gone now.

Don't forget, "pimps don't commit suicide." (WTF.)

green goodness

I like how green looks greener against a grey sky. I also like what green looks like in the goldeny rays of late afternoon. I used to like to lay in those rays when I lived at home, but in my apartment all my windows face north so no golden rays for me. Yumi likes to lay in those rays too. Sometimes I simulate that color of light by wearing my Persol sunglasses, because they have yellowy lenses. It brightens my day. But today we have green on grey, which I will enjoy on my way back to work in 30 minutes. I'm sleepy. I just want to watch movies for the rest of the day...

soundset sightings

Yesterday was Soundset: an entire day dedicated to hip hop. I went with Morgan, and being that he's hardcore we got there at noon and didn't get home til eight. I had forgotten how exhausting festival type shows can be. I definitely would have rather gone later, but oh well. Or maybe had a few more breaks on the grassy area by the dome. But the music was good, as was the company and I had a good time. Caught a nice tan too. And saw a million and one people that I knew, but hadn't seen for a while.

Besides the music, my other favorite part of Soundset was the people watching. I saw a zillion cute pairs of sneakers, a crazy dancing girl dressed in a dirty white tube dress, a few groups of roaming 12 year olds (AA show, yknow), 3 or 4 extremely cute boys, quite a few chicks that thought it would be a good idea to wear 4 inch heels to an 8 hour show, too many thongs hanging out the tops of jeans (hello! can we say tacky??), some great hair, the cutest little dancing boy ever, girls dressed like they were going clubbing, a bunch of cute summer dresses, dehydrated drunk people, trailer trash, and oh so much more.

Hmm... my blog today seems like it's lacking my usual energy... I think it's because I just ate McDonald's with a strawberry shake. It made me sluggish. Ha.

superficial things that weird me out

1. When people have smiles that look more like a grimace than a smile.

2. When people have smiles that unfortunately are more gum than tooth. I know its mean, but it makes me mildly uncomfortable.

3. When people gain weight in their body, but their head stays the same size.

4. When people eat in certain ways that are gross. You know what I mean.

5. Body odor that isn't normal. Like BO that is from working out and exercising is one thing, but just a strange off smell is another.

what i need is what i want... maybe

I just realized in the past couple of days that in some aspects of life, I have no idea what I want. I thought I did, and I bitched and moaned and complained about the fact that I wasn't getting it. Then it dropped into my lap more than once and now I'm all woah, wtf.

In general, I feel like sometimes I get completely obsessed with an idea, whether it be getting a roommate, a new painting, a relationship, or whatever and then a couple days later I'm over it. Or maybe not over it, but I get completely nervous about the idea or something happens and I'm all on the fence about it when just a day or two earlier it was all I wanted. I think I think too much. Or totally expound on the experience I just had with ideas of what *could* happen in the future and freak myself out. That's also how I get obsessed in the first place though, I expound on what could happen and get myself all excited.

Or maybe I just get nervous about losing things I just recently gained. Or I'm too used to dealing with crazies where I know things will come to an end and I don't have to worry about it. Or I'm afraid that it *will* in fact end, but at the same time scared that it won't.

Or maybe I'll just try to stop thinking about it and just live my life and see what happens. After all it's only like day two.

tuesday reflections

Ok, I would just like to clarify a few things about my post before on blogs. I do not hate poetry. I do not dislike blogs that have poetry on them. I just dislike really flowery poetry-esque/philosophical, self-reflective blogs that are being written for an audience, which possibly renders the self reflection non-reflective?

For instance, I read a blog that is full of self reflection, but I feel like said blogger really just has a thought and writes it down without calculating into his blog the responses he will get from his readers. Whereas there are other blogs like that where I feel the blogger will write or say certain things, because they know they have an audience and the blogger plays to them and it just all gets a bit narcissistic. That's all I'm saying. Also props to blogs like my sister's with lots of photos giving us on the other side of the world a peek of her life across the sea :)

Now enough about blogs.

I am in love with the movie Ironman. Everyone needs to go see it. In theaters. Don't wait for it to get to the cheap theater or wait to rent it. Just sneak in some candy and pay the rising price of theater tickets, because it will be worth it.

Really hoping Syesha gets voted off Idol this week.

Now I need to go clean my apartment. Stay tuned for more fascinating tidbits from Yumi Lover Life...

happy mother's day!

To all the moms, moms to be, and most importantly, my own ma, have a super fantastic day!

happy belated birthday sia!

OMG. I don't know how this could have possibly happened, but I missed putting up Sia's birthday post! The little darling turned 1 year old on May 1st! Lately she has taken to dumping over the water dish so there is a permanent wet spot on my carpeting. Such a precious little kitten, she's growing up so fast :)

asian people RULE!

Yet another reason why Asians rock your socks off...



I'd like to see *YOU* make a broccoli flute. Yeah, that's right white boy, I'm talkin' to YOU. (...kidding!)

productive procrastination / procrastinate productively

Yesterday was Cinco de Mayo! Obviously, I had to go out and drink tequila. (Obviously.) Thus I woke up late today and got ready for work. Just as I was lint rolling my pants, about to walk out the door, I got a phone call. I was called off. Again. I mean it *is* raining, and I was scheduled for the patio, but boo! So now what?

So I changed into a tanktop and sweatpants. Got on my laptop. Thought about doing some prework for work I know my bro will be needing later. Seemed like plugging in my wacom tablet would be a lot of work. Didn't do it. Changed my ichat photo. Played a move in scrabbulous. Talked to my cousin on ichat for an hour about the merits of serving jobs, the best soup in the world, flamin' hot cheetos with cream cheese, and the demise of hidden beach. Changed my myspace photo. Listened to the music on other people's myspace pages. Added a photo to my "I likey" album. Read the missed connections on Craigslist. Laughed at the missed connections on Craigslist. Checked to see if I could go again on scrabbulous. I couldn't. Thought about resuming my painting. Didn't resume. Thought about drawing more characters/designs for DevilWise. Didn't do it. Talked to my cousin some more. Wished that I was being more productive since I have this entire free day. Blogged about it.

thoughts on blogs

So, I was just thinking about how I've become a much better blogger than I used to be as far as consistently posting. Then I was thinking about how I mostly just use my blog as an outlet to bitch about stuff and post pictures of my cats. Sometimes I even update you about my life or give you my opinion on random stupid stuff. Which is fine, but... not really interesting. Being that I'm not spontaneously witty and funny, it's a small wonder that I even have readers. But then I also thought, maybe it *is* semi interesting if you know me, because you know... you might get a small inkling about what goes on in my head. But that's only if you're really perceptive, because really, my blog is fairly superficial.

It's interesting the different kinds of blogs people have. Some are kind of serious in nature, talking about deep feelings, or personal problems, self reflection... things of that nature. I usually don't enjoy reading these blogs, because these people usually like to use a lot of metaphors, but we all know what they are talking about anyway and have to go through the effort of decrypting. Either that or they try to be very poetic about it, which kind of works sometimes, but I'm not a big fan of poetry either (which is too bad).

Other blogs are just about whatever, but the author is really funny and witty so no matter what the blog is about, it has entertainment value. These are my faves; whether food, sex, alcohol, belly button lint, or the weird looking dude at the bus stop, these blogs are a delight to read. Even their more serious posts are good, because these people tend to be very good writers.

And some are a strange mix of the two I've mentioned above, which confuses me. I'll stop reading some for a while when they get too poetic, but then go back and be bummed that I missed a good funny one.

Mikey made the point though, that even if no one reads your blog, you still have a record of what was going on in your life at certain points in time. And the whole reason I even started this blog was to remember my time in Korea. So, I will continue to blog about whatever the hell I want, because it will be fun to look back on it and see what I was thinking at 11:17pm on a Sunday night on May 4th of 2008.

Side note: my right eye is itching like crazy from pollen. Also, shoutout to Jimmy J., welcome back to Mpls!

no mas cigarettes!!

It's official kids, I am a NON-SMOKER. I have extinguished my final cigarette. I am free. Forever.

myspace madness

Ok, have you ever browsed random people's profiles on myspace? Well, I have been up all night wasting time and browsed many a profile and let me tell you, there are some strange strange people out there. Sometimes you discover some cool music people have on their profiles, but not too often.

The best part, however, is the profile pics.

A few of my favorites for guys include: the "thinker" pose (fist under chin), the skinny white boy trying to look like a thug, the thugs trying to look badasses (lots of sunglasses and raised chins), anyone posing with a gun (seriously?!), incredibly obese people with celebrities/cartoons up as their pic, self taken pics of guys holding up their shirts to show their washboard abs or even better, self taken pics of guys holding up their shirts to show their skinny high metabolism stomachs.

My faves for girls: anyone doing a pinup girl pose, but they are dressed in jogging suits or the like, the taken from behind pose with girl (attempting) to seductively look over her shoulder and showing lots of ass (granted, with the right lighting and a pretty girl it might be ok), and really just any amateurish looking image where the girl is trying to look like a sex kitten--- unfortunately, it's hard to look like a sex kitten when you are in your shitty apartment kitchen with the dirty dishes and a potted plant in the background.

AND, there was one takeall winner of best pic-- this was actually not a profile pic, but it was one of two images that he had. And I can't post it, because this is a pg-13 blog ;) But if you are interested, I will give you a link, cuz oh lordy, it is a DOOZY.

And now it's quarter to 4 in the morning, so I'm signing off. Good luck & good night!

ZzzzZzzzZzzzzz

Sooo tiiirreedd... can't sleeeepppp.......

arriba!

I just tried to watch CSI: Miami, which I DVRed, but somehow the whole thing recorded with Spanish dubs. That's effed up.

thoughts for monday

I love waking up surrounded by my kittens...

I may be giving up on the herbal remedies-- not because they don't work, but because the pills are so damn big and I have to take so many of them. Come June, I'm still going to try the bee pollen thing, because that's a once a day kind of thing. These other guys are like 2 or 3 pills 2 or 3 times a day. Too much!!

Also, there are WAY too many people doing laundry today. Who does laundry on a Monday?! Aren't people with real jobs supposed to do that crap on Sundays or something?

Speaking of jobs, I wish I worked at mine more. :P

Happy Monday folks.

omg, it's *still* snowing

Hmm... looks like I won't be working on the patio tonight. Cuz, OMG, it's *still* snowing.

omg, it's snowing

Did I just say spring was here??? Cuz, OMG, it's snowing.

herbal remedies trial day 1

Ahhh, spring is in the air! Tight little buds are appearing on trees, grass is getting greener, and pollen is floating around on the air currents fertilizing with a vengeance. And thus, I am a sneezing, snot nosed, red eyed, itching, burning mess. Seasonal allergies are killing me.

Yesterday my day consisted of movies, books, sneezing, blowing my nose, and trying to not itch my eyes. Claritin only works half the time, benadryl makes me fall asleep, and Claritin D makes me feel drunk and like I'm walking through a dream, only the dream is my life.

I HATE taking medication. I feel like there are so many extra unnatural chemicals that I end up putting in my body that I really don't want there. (This coming from a cigarette smoking, processed food eating girl sounds crazy and illogical, but it's true.) And so, in an attempt to not fill my body with even more crap than I already do, I've decided to try some natural remedies.

Natural remedy #1: Stinging Nettle
This is to help with nasal allergy symptoms. Strangely enough, nettles are high in histamine molecules, but it works anyway.

Natural rememdy #2: Quercetin
Quercetin is a bioflavonoid found in yellow onions, garlic, citrus fruit, and buckwheat. Quercetin and other bioflavonoids like luteolin inhibit the release of histamine from mast cells. I think you need to have this build up in your system, so I should have started taking it 6 weeks ago, but oh well. I'm also not sure if these will work together in harmony or not, but I guess we'll find out.

Unfortuantely, I already have taken both benadryl AND claritin today, but I am now starting the daily dosage of natural remedies and plan to use only these in the future if possible. I will keep you posted on how well they work. In June, I'm going to attempt to use bee pollen to build up my immunity for the fall allergy season so long as I'm not allergic to it, ha. Cool hippy guy at the herbal store I went to said he suffered from seasonal allergies for YEARS, and then he started using bee pollen and has not had a problem since.

So wish me luck kids, because my quality of life during allergy season is not so hot.
Word up.

sealed with a kiss!

purple paradise

Hey guess what?!

My hair is purple. Well not TOTALLY purple, but purpley.

dreams & love, love & dreams

I just woke up from a dream where in the dream I was really intensely in love with this guy. I was sitting on a couch in some random basement apartment and we were with all his friends just hanging out and he was sitting in a chair across from me. And I must have been in the process of kind of waking up because in the dream, but it also seemed like in reality, I was thinking how weird it was to be in love again, but then I realized that the love was kind of one sided because I noticed this guy was not noticing me at all and then I started to get kind of sad. And then I really looked at him and in my half awake half sleeping state I realized the guy I loved was not even the guy that I thought he was and this feeling was even odder because in my lucid mind I realized who the guy was in reality which did not match up to who the guy was in my dream... and thus I realized that I was starting to wake up and I wanted to fall back asleep and rehave that feeling of being in love even if he didn't love me as much as I loved him, because it still felt good, but you can't make yourself fall in love, you just fall. And this is the weird dreamy thing that just happened to me, because I took a really late evening nap...

free at last!!

Ahhh, free at last! Well, kind of. Last Friday was my last day at Red Lobster. My coworkers all said,"Oooh sad! This is so sad!!" and thus I had to keep my elation at being done to a minimum, ha. Also, I more or less quit my graphics "job". I know in my last blog I said it was about to take off, which it may be, but in looking at my life I discovered, because of that job I was a. stressed out b. had no free time to pursue projects of my own and c. feeling constantly as if we were at the brink of something great, but it would never quite come to fruition.

Now it's strange, because I have TONS of free time! I'm so used to having to schedule everything in my life so rigidly, and now I'm kind of out of sorts. Although, I do have a bunch of projects I'm getting ready to work on. It is just an odd feeling to not *have* to work on them if I don't want to.

In other news, my little Jen Bunny was in Mpls last weekend! SO much fun!! Six shots and a drink later, we were noraebonging til 4 in the morning!



Also, Yumi got a new bed that looks like a turquoise flower, and she really digs it.



Funny, but slightly gross story, my kitten Sia ate part of a cat toy and so I had to pull a string out of her butt. Soon after destringing her butt, I discovered she herself had tried to remove the string and I was lucky enough to have poop smeared on my carpet. I love my little darlings :)

and this is why minnesota sucks. (but I still heart it)

So remember me saying Stella's was about to take off? I take it back. Holy effing snowstorm! And I was really put out by it until I saw that snowman on my way home from work today :)

In other notes, do you ever notice how your bed seems the most comfortable it's ever been when you have to get out of it and you've already hit the snooze button three times so you actually *do* have to get up? This morning my alarm went off yet again... I turned it off fully intending to jump up for fear of being late, when Sia, my precious darling little kitten suddenly stretched out all along the length of my arm (which was freezing) and curled her little head under my chin. Damn...

I wear this green hoodie too much

I think I probably wear this green hoodie too much, but it's my favorite. Sia said she doesn't mind though.